Thursday, April 7, 2011

Anything to get my mind off of today.

I’d like to start with some random and nice things:

*I think I am the last person to join Twitter, but I did. My name is Hed_M. Come at me, bro!

Ron Burgundy: Boy, that escalated quickly. I mean, that really got out of hand fast!
Champ Kind: It jumped up a notch.
Ron Burgundy: It did, didn't it?
Brick Tamland: Yeah, I stabbed a man in the heart.
Ron Burgundy: I saw that! Brick killed a guy! Did you throw a trident?
Brick Tamland: Yeah, there were horses, and a man on fire, and I killed a guy with a trident.
Ron Burgundy: Brick, I've been meaning to talk to you about that. You should probably find yourself a safe house or a relative close by. Lay low for a while, because you're probably wanted for murder.

*I got an award for my sideboob! Heather from Sugar Free Thoughts made up bestowed a beautiful award to my girl Kage from Sex, Sequins + Sociopaths and decided to spread the love around-to me!

She wrote, “See, I was going to link to the post where she looked devastatingly gorgeous in her wedding gown, but when I got over there to get the link....SIDE BOOB!!”  Me and my sideboob thank you Heather!

*The lovely Lyndylou from laugh-out-loud The Giggle Fest laid upon me a lavish legacy labeled “The Versatile Blogger”!

She wrote, “I love the way she writes so honestly and I also have a sister with mental health issues and she has helped me to understand it a little bit more.” Thanks so much! Just a few weeks ago I got this award, so please forgive me for adding the blog post in which I lay out the rules of this prize…my brain is just fried today.

You may remember from Monday's blog that I had a doctor appointment today because I can’t stop peeing, and had concerns that there may be some shit going on other than that. The last week or two I have felt awful. I mean, just terrible. I feel like I have the flu-my bones hurt, I am sleepy, my eyes feel constant pressure, and I literally have no appetite-yet I can’t stop peeing. Last night I ate some caramel ice cream, and within about fifteen minutes I was shaking from what felt like a sugar high. It was the weirdest feeling-like I was going to jump out of my skin.

Also every time I eat, no matter what it is, I start coughing so bad I have thrown up and bruised my ribs. I don’t know what happens, I just get goo in my lungs and it won’t come out, then I start sneezing. It sounds like a food allergy or something to me, so I also wanted to mention that to my doc today.

I got to the doctor and they gave me a cup to pee in, then checked my vitals. When the nurse was done checking my blood pressure, she checked it again on my other arm because I guess it was really low-84/60. I told her I hadn’t eaten, if that could be a cause (FYI my appointment was at 3pm-I really have no appetite). I mentioned to the nurse about my previous blood sugar issues and my coughing after eating so she could let the doctor know about that as well.

When I saw the doctor, she asked me a handful of questions and then shared with me my urinalysis-everything looked fine except I had protein in my pee, which could be a symptom for diabetes. In fact, she said that everything I was telling her kind of pointed in the direction of diabetes. She wanted to do a blood glucose test on the spot and also check my CBC and cholesterol. When I got to the blood taker lady, she couldn’t find a vein (which has never ever happened-I’m a vampire’s dream!). She had to use a needle on me that they use for babies. Heh.

I’m kind of in shock/denial until I hear a yay or nay, but…I know something isn’t right. I feel so off. Plus me not being hungry is unheard of. I have to force myself to eat, and even then I don’t want to because of the coughing fits and the way I feel afterward. Of course not having a true diagnosis didn’t stop me from crying my ass off on the way home.

I don’t want to talk about everything I am feeling until I get a solid answer. I know I brought it on myself if I am diabetic. I’ve also been doing some research, and apparently diabetes and depression go hand in hand. They still don’t know the “chicken or the egg” about it-i.e, if there is a genetic link between the two or if the bipolar lifestyle contributes to diabetes. Check this out:

“According to an evaluation of 20 studies over the past 10 years, the prevalence rate of diabetics with major depression is three to four times greater than in the general population. While depression affects maybe three or five percent of the population at any given time, the rate is between 15 and twenty percent in patients with diabetes, according to the American Diabetic Association.”

So yeah. This was my day today. To top it all off, my husband’s dog of 13 years, Ellie, had to be put down while I was at the doctor-just two weeks after his grandpa passed. The rest of this evening I am spending with him, playing video games. Distraction for the win!

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  1. Hope the video games helped and I hope everything works out for you!

  2. I hope you get an answer soon, as it crap not knowing! Hugs to you :)

  3. I knew you'd win awards for that sideboob.

  4. If it is any help, I also have it. I was officially diagnosed more than 15 years ago with it. Knock on wood I am still not on insulin or anything. I control mine through diet and meds (which I haven't taken in quite awhile but am still ok) If it is something that has been brought on by unhealthy eating and weight issues, then most likely you can reverse some of the effects just by simply eating better and losing some weight (I say simply but we all know how not simply that is). This is what my doctor told me when I was diagnosed especially if it is caught early enough.

  5. sending parayers and best wishes your way. I know you'll be ok because I said so, bit I'm still worried.

    Congrats on your boob(S)

    I followed you on teh twitterz...I'm @TLanceB

  6. Yay, for video games, yay for boobie awards!

    Not so yay about the testing... Hope you find out something definitive soon.

    Until then, two out of 3 isn't bad. That's a majority in the 'yay' column.

  7. Congrats on the awards. :)

    I hope you find out the results from your doctor soon. I know the thought of having diabetes is terrifying, but it's manageable and is something you can deal with day by day - you don't have to process it all overnight.

    Good luck!

  8. I am right with you Hed, waiting for blood work results for myself and my daughter. Getting the boobs s mushed today (you're probably to young still) Everything is a waiting game. I went through the same thing when the vampire took my blood, 3 tries. The needle she used on you is a butterfly, it was used on me too. Next time you have blood work, make sure you are well hydrated. Drink lots of water. It's very difficult get blood when one is dehydrated. Anyhow, I really hope you're feeling better and that all turns out well.

  9. I'm sorry to hear about your medical challenges, but I can tell you this, both as an EMT and family member of SEVERAL diabetics: if that IS what it is, once you get it under control with whatever regimen you & the Doc decide you need, you will feel a SHIT TON better physically. I promise.

  10. i'm so sorry, boo :( what a shitty day.i'm trying to think of something comforting to say that no one has said

    hey, halle berry has it too. at least you'll be in good company!

    hmmm. that wasn't it, was it?

    love you, hang in there :)

  11. Well the good thing is that you went to the doctor. Now just wait to see what they say. If you watch your diet and lose weight your sugar can drop to normal and you may not need meds. But take it one day at a time. Getting it under control is the first order so you can feel better. Sorry about your doggie! Good idea to spend time with J. For both of you.

  12. congrats on the awrds and on joining twitter will come over and follow i'm becca112971 over on twitter

  13. Yeah waiting on results sux. I hate not knowing what's wrong. Hopefully it'll all be well.

    On the bright side, you killed a man with a trident. That's pretty badass.

    Oh and yeah, thanks for putting me in that pic. Me loves it.

  14. First off, I am so flattered that I got to be RON BURGUNDY!!!! I think we already discussed the issue of Brick/you looking like there is a long distance invisible blow job going on there .....

    I really really really REALLY hope your tests prove to be nothing serious. *fingers crossed* I am hypoglycemic and it sucks. No low carb diets for me! Plus, I have to fucking "graze" all day long.

    I also thought we agreed that I was using YOU as my own personal Twitter audience? Or are my random "updates" getting creepy? :o)

    Your side boob comes to me in my dreams.

    Text me if you need, doll.

    Love ya.

  15. How strange. I've also been tested for diabetes this week and like you I'm really worried about the possibility of having it. I've been feeling faint, dizzy, dehydrated and interestingly enough pretty darn low despite the first man for 9 months entering my life from stage right. The doc told me there are heaps of possibilities surrounding what it could be, not necessarily the 'd' word. Hope all works out for you love!

    FF xo

  16. Hed, sorry about the potential bad news.:(
    Video games can be a healthy way to get your mind off things.

  17. Rest Mgr-Thanks! They really did help :)

    Lyndylou-It really is...I still feel just awful, and nothing is helping! As Tom Petty says "the waiting is the hardest part"...

    Drake-I sure as hell didn't! :P

    Maasiyat-It's good to know I have someone that not only understands my bipolar but also my food issues. Seriously.

    Lance-I wish you could will it all away for me, that would be amazing.

    Idaho-True, true. Two out of three ain't bad!

    JM, OT and Becca-Thanks!

    Jess-Thanks, and I hope so. It just sounds so daunting at the moment, you know?

    BA-You're right, they did call it a butterfly needle! Let me know what's going on with yours as well, okay?

    Shieldmaiden96-I hope so. Right now (this weekend), every time I eat I feel like I want to die. I don't want to feel that way anymore!!!

    Kage-Ha! And Joe Jonas! A JONAS BROTHER!!!

    Barb-Yep, I guess the thing I am the most concerned with is that it will involve a routine. Routines and me are like oil and water-although that's NOT to say I don't want to try!

    Rafa-BAHAHAHAHAHAHA! Your comment made me crack up!

    Heather-I HATE GRAZING. HATE IT SO MUCH! If I could eat once a day I would be happy-and of course that's un-possible if I am diabetic. Grr.

    FF-Like I said on the Twitters, keep me informed with your test results too, okay?


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