I’d like to start with some random and nice things:
*I think I am the last person to join Twitter, but I did. My name is Hed_M. Come at me, bro!
She wrote, “See, I was going to link to the post where she looked devastatingly gorgeous in her wedding gown, but when I got over there to get the link....SIDE BOOB!!” Me and my sideboob thank you Heather!
*The lovely Lyndylou from laugh-out-loud The Giggle Fest laid upon me a lavish legacy labeled “The Versatile Blogger”!
She wrote, “I love the way she writes so honestly and I also have a sister with mental health issues and she has helped me to understand it a little bit more.” Thanks so much! Just a few weeks ago I got this award, so please forgive me for adding the blog post in which I lay out the rules of this prize…my brain is just fried today.
You may remember from Monday's blog that I had a doctor appointment today because I can’t stop peeing, and had concerns that there may be some shit going on other than that. The last week or two I have felt awful. I mean, just terrible. I feel like I have the flu-my bones hurt, I am sleepy, my eyes feel constant pressure, and I literally have no appetite-yet I can’t stop peeing. Last night I ate some caramel ice cream, and within about fifteen minutes I was shaking from what felt like a sugar high. It was the weirdest feeling-like I was going to jump out of my skin.
Also every time I eat, no matter what it is, I start coughing so bad I have thrown up and bruised my ribs. I don’t know what happens, I just get goo in my lungs and it won’t come out, then I start sneezing. It sounds like a food allergy or something to me, so I also wanted to mention that to my doc today.
I got to the doctor and they gave me a cup to pee in, then checked my vitals. When the nurse was done checking my blood pressure, she checked it again on my other arm because I guess it was really low-84/60. I told her I hadn’t eaten, if that could be a cause (FYI my appointment was at 3pm-I really have no appetite). I mentioned to the nurse about my previous blood sugar issues and my coughing after eating so she could let the doctor know about that as well.
When I saw the doctor, she asked me a handful of questions and then shared with me my urinalysis-everything looked fine except I had protein in my pee, which could be a symptom for diabetes. In fact, she said that everything I was telling her kind of pointed in the direction of diabetes. She wanted to do a blood glucose test on the spot and also check my CBC and cholesterol. When I got to the blood taker lady, she couldn’t find a vein (which has never ever happened-I’m a vampire’s dream!). She had to use a needle on me that they use for babies. Heh.
I’m kind of in shock/denial until I hear a yay or nay, but…I know something isn’t right. I feel so off. Plus me not being hungry is unheard of. I have to force myself to eat, and even then I don’t want to because of the coughing fits and the way I feel afterward. Of course not having a true diagnosis didn’t stop me from crying my ass off on the way home.
I don’t want to talk about everything I am feeling until I get a solid answer. I know I brought it on myself if I am diabetic. I’ve also been doing some research, and apparently diabetes and depression go hand in hand. They still don’t know the “chicken or the egg” about it-i.e, if there is a genetic link between the two or if the bipolar lifestyle contributes to diabetes. Check this out:
“According to an evaluation of 20 studies over the past 10 years, the prevalence rate of diabetics with major depression is three to four times greater than in the general population. While depression affects maybe three or five percent of the population at any given time, the rate is between 15 and twenty percent in patients with diabetes, according to the American Diabetic Association.”
So yeah. This was my day today. To top it all off, my husband’s dog of 13 years, Ellie, had to be put down while I was at the doctor-just two weeks after his grandpa passed. The rest of this evening I am spending with him, playing video games. Distraction for the win!