Thursday, March 3, 2011

I GOT A JOB! I GOT A JOB!!!!! OMG!!!

Hi everybody! If you may remember from Monday's post, I applied for three jobs out of 1200 last week-a pharmacy tech position, a shift leader position at a hamburger joint, and a cashier at a bakery. I haven’t been looking for manager positions due to my depression issues-because I don’t want stress to overwhelm me. Baby steps. Baby steps!

Last Sunday I got an e-mail from the bakery asking if I could come in that day or Monday. I apologized and told them I was in the throes of a wicked flu, and I would LOVE to come in and talk to them later in the week if it was possible. Saying this was risky, I know, but I really wanted to be at the top of my game, you know? They were really nice and said that was no problem-call when I was feeling better. Phew! I e-mailed them yesterday to let them know the worst had passed, and that if they were still looking, I would love to come in and talk to them.

Yesterday I saw my therapist and talked to her about my issues with social anxiety, and how I used to be a rock star when it came to managing and acing interviews. I told her I used to be able to put on my “happy hat” and ooze charisma. She asked me, “well, why can’t you do that now? I mean, when you’re feeling down, why don’t you tell yourself ‘I’m a rock star’?” I told her because I would feel like a total fraud if I put on an act all the time! She explained how it’s been proven that adjusting your attitude, your posture, even smiling when you don’t feel like it has been shown to alter your mood. I felt better leaving therapy yesterday because I know that if I don’t break my mental cycle, it will always come back one day when I least expect it and screw up everything I build.

So this morning I wake up at 8:30. I check my e-mails, Facebook and Blogger for comments (don’t you? Hee hee). No reply from the bakery yet. I have breakfast, and around 9:30 my phone beeps. It’s from the bakery owner. “Can you come in at 11am today"?” In 90 minutes? CRAP! It’s a half hour away! I have no interview clothes! I run to my closet and find a button-up shirt. I find a box with old clothes in it that I was going to ship to Australia and find a pair of black slacks-two sizes too small. I suck it ALL IN (boys, look away so I can keep my mystique), zip the zipper and have to tuck in the buttons to get them to fit. I also put a black tank top on under my shirt just in case my zipper explodes from the fatness! My mom offers to iron my clothes (thanks mom!), and I do my hair and make-up. I’m out the door by 10:15.

The bakery is so nice and upscale! And it’s busy! I find out they make all of their pastries from scratch and they fly in their bagels fresh from New York. Heaven. I see the owners helping some customers out so I wait. I look around and realize that OMG NEXT DOOR IS A STARBUCKS. That’s a sign! I have to get this job, just for the daily macchiato fix. Oh, and you know, money is important too.

The actual bakery. Ooh la la!

I put on my “happy hat” and sit down with the owners. Channel your rock star, Hed, I tell myself. They are really nice and laid-back. I listen and smile and agree. After about a half-hour the male manager says, “so I’ll start you on the schedule for next week and…”. I interrupt and say, “wait, I have the job?” He laughs and says, “yes!”. I almost did my happy jump-up-and-down clap but I held it in and just said, “YAY!!!”

I let them know I’m available every day except Wednesday afternoons (therapy). Then they say, “you know, we have a manager position available as well, and you have so much experience…” I tell them that for now I’m unable to take that position but would be happy to revisit it in a few months after I get situated there. I know that was also a risky thing to say, but there are a million reasons why I declined the position. I haven’t worked in 18 months. I don’t want to jump in the deep end. Plus the whole manager/stress thing. Also I am driving my mom’s car, and a 40-hour work week would be tough to do since we are sharing it (of course my mom says “you should have taken it!!!” when I get home, but I really am happy and excited for the cashier position). Baby steps!

I want this to work. I want to continue to fight. I have to stay strong. I will leave you with actual pictures of their goodies to get your mouth watering! YAY!

What I brought home today-an apple sweet cream pastry and a red velvet cupcake

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30 comments:

  1. So proud of you! Not for getting the job--of course you were going to get a job! But for listening to your therapist and following her advice. Its true, and its been proven, if you make a new habit--happy hat/rock star--and you act that habit it will become a habit. I know you can't stay up all the time but just remember everything passes. Nothing is static, its all in motion and you are too! Also, not taking the manager's job just to please the owners, you showed such amazing insight there girl~ beyond proud of you! Hed rocks! love, auntie r.

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  2. I was going to comment about how I admired your strength and your ability to realize when you needed to step back and know what was good for YOU. And then I saw the pictures, and my mind went blank and I started to drool...

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  3. Outstanding! Congrats. That is awesome news.

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  4. I AM SO HAPPY FOR YOU! And the baked goodies you showed us. Yum! I would so turn into a beached whale if I worked in a bakery! Good going rockstar...

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  5. Oh my shit....Napoleans. Oh, I mean, YAY Hed!! Congratulations, woman!

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  6. Awesome!!!!!!!!!!!! You Go Girl!!!!!

    So happy for you and so proud!

    CBG
    canadianbloggergirl.blogspot.com
    ps, excuse me while I clean up my drool from above pics!

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  7. I am sooooooooooo proud of you girl and know you will be awesome there and they will love you. I feel this is going to be a good March for you and the start of better times. Congratulations Hed.
    Odie

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  8. BEST FREAKING NEWS ALL WEEK! [Yelling from VA!]

    Nicely done Hed. And your therapist is right.

    I am proud of you for saying yes when you had only an hour to get ready and a half hour to get there - you didn't just throw up your hands and say "no, I can't do it."

    Congrats. Now, no fair posting pics all the time of the yummies at your work.

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  9. First off congrats to you.

    Second those pictures look so delicious. I am hungry now for stuff that I know that I shouldn't be eating.

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  10. Outstanding, Hed!!! And I think waiting for the manager position is a good move. I am sincerely happy for you and your rock star self :-)

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  11. Holy motherfucker... I want that berry tart-thing....

    Oh yeah, and congrats! Hope you climb the corporate ladder quickly!

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  12. So happy for you sweetie. OMG, that is great. It will be a good thing both financially and give you some purpose. Two weeks and I'm liking your therapist. You go Rock Star! Remember what I said last. You have to keep trying new things till the right one works. Love you!!! :-)

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  13. woo-hoo! i told you it sounded like they were great people. i'm so happy for you! the baked goods look awesome.

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  14. Congratulations is in order, your Awsomeness. And let it be known, I am hooker when it comes to baked goods. "You give me biscuit, I love you long time."

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  15. Awesome! Love that your Rock Star self came out on top!

    Ummmm...how well do you think those baked goods will do if they're shipped to Canada?

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  16. Whatever pastry that is, third picture down. ME WANT!!

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  17. Congratulations! During my divorce, therapy and major anxiety issues in 2006, I took a promotion at work and regretted it for 2 yrs. I am proud you knew what you could do and why. Awesome deal

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  18. Awesome! Yay Hed see it is starting to work out already! Just take it easy and do exactly what you said, baby steps.

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  19. AWESOME!! And that food... OMG.... Are you kidding me?? Looks G-R-E-A-T!

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  20. CONGRATS MAMA!!! WORK IT AND WORK IT GOOD!!! *drooling over sweets while on hardcore diet*

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  21. Yay! Happy Dance Time! I am so happy for you! Your therapist is quite right, thinking happy thoughts help (this coming from someone who spent most of her life depressed). You are a Rockstar!!! Just keep taking your baby steps, those help too :D

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  22. That's so damn smart of you! I like the 'wait and see' approach you have to the offer of management.

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  23. Huge congratulations to you Hed! I'm so pleased for you and I know that it's all going to work out really well for you, especially with the Starbucks next door. LOL! As you say, baby steps, baby steps. Well done you. You should be feeling very proud of yourself. Have a good weekend.

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  24. what wonderful newd congrats and wow all that yummy food i'm officially hungry

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  25. whoop whoop whoop! Congrats and those cakes....deeeeeeeeeelish!

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  26. Working in a bakery is like taking a bouncer’s job in a strip club, you won't be able to keep your hands off the merchandise.

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  27. Okay, first off, I love you for your comments on my blog.

    Second... holy frikkin' shitballs, girl. You have just made some massive leaps and bounds from a few weeks ago of sleepless, tearless nights.

    I am so proud of you - that you had the balls to do this, that you are in therapy, that you stood your ground and set reasonable boundaries for you, and that you have a job!

    My most sincere congrats to you! That is some kick ass tenacity, girl.

    You EFFING ROCK!

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  28. Yay!! I'm doin' the Happy Dance for you! Hopefully your good luck will rub off on me (waiting to hear back from yesterday's interview). :-)

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