This is the first time I have been on my laptop in two days. I officially have the flu. Mom, you suck. She has been sick since last Monday, and finally went to the doctor where she was diagnosed with a wicked sinus infection and flu and was given some antibiotics. I had been in bed since Wednesday (for emo reasons), and when I woke up Friday night I was miserable. Apparently my nose is bipolar…it won’t decide whether it wants to be a vacuum of evil stuffiness or run like hell (TMI). I have been creating makeshift tissue nose plugs so I can actually sleep at night (double TMI).
My mom just came in with a homemade smoothie just now. She no longer sucks.
Other than the obvious wanting to feel better because being sick is AWFUL, guess who got an e-mail yesterday about setting up a job interview? Just last week I was bitching that out of 1200 job postings on Monster and Craigslist, I applied for three. How surprised was I that one of the three actually contacted me? And just my luck, on my sickest day yet they wanted me to come in for an interview (it’s a bakery, just in case you were wondering). I extremely politely stated my case to them in a reply e-mail that I was very sick and couldn’t come in because I didn’t want to infect anyone, and if it was at all possible could I come in around the middle of the week because I was very interested in the position (come on, 3 out of 1200!)? I held my breath and got this e-mail a few hours later: “Not a problem! We are both just barely getting over it and it been 6 days already. Email me when you are feeling better.” OH THANK GOD. Seriously!
This week’s poll had your fear of snakes just barely beating out your fear of spiders with one vote. This week’s poll may sound harsh, but I am SO TIRED of these two! I mean one is barely an adult and has a parent who lets her accept absolutely no responsibility for her behavior, and the other is a full-grown man who is just a total douchebag (even more so since he hit the talk-show circuit this weekend), who thinks everyone else is in the wrong EXCEPT him. I’d love to hear your thoughts on these two, people.
I haven’t talked to you guys about my first appointment with my new psychologist from Wednesday yet. Her name is Nadia, and although I called her Dr. Nadia through the entire appointment she politely corrected me that she was a medical intern and not really a doctor. She reminded me so much of the sister from “Sixteen Candles” with the way that she talked and her mannerisms.
“Darling, is something bothering you?”
She listened to me mostly explain my problems (which in itself could have taken up the entire hour), and then she told me how she approached therapy and counseling-she believes in a mind/body connection, and that even if you are having the worst day, you need to always have a positive outlook. “So Hed, when you wake up, and are having a particularly awful day, think of something that you are grateful for-like, ‘I have legs!’” I started to laugh, and then I felt bad that I was laughing and told her she was right. I mean I have the flu, not spinal meningitis or anything. And electricity to power my laptop to write to you wonderful people. And fruit for a delicious smoothie.
I think the only problem I have with this way of thinking is that when my depression gets really bad, all rational thought goes right out the window. And I also know that one session isn’t going to do much, that sometimes it takes years to change your cognitive thoughts. I’m glad I liked her, and I’m doubly glad that I feel I can be honest with her without feeling stupid. At the end of our session I asked, “so you’ll take me on as a patient?” She gave me this warm smile and said, “firstly I don’t think of you as a ‘patient’. You are a ‘client’, and more than that, a ‘person’. And I would be honored to see you again”. Awww.
AND TRENT REZNOR WON THE FREAKING OSCAR! YAYYYYYYYY!
I’m alllllllll yours!
One last thing: last week I gave a shout-out to my new (and old) readers for hitting 75 readers over the previous weekend. I am now at 81! Holy cow! It occurred to me I have had this blog for three months as of the 19th of February, so 81 readers is a BIG DEAL to me. Thanks to each and every one of you for reading, and I hope I have many more things to write about as time goes by. Much love! <3