Monday, February 21, 2011

6am still exists?

A whopping 60 of you voted in the poll this week-good for you! Over half of you chose In n’ Out Burger…and rightfully so. There is nothing better when you’re really craving a cheeseburger. It’s downright sexual…or is that just me? Plus there is the “secret menu”-I recommend Animal Style (um, I’m still talking about the burger by the way). Someone ordered an 100x100 and they actually made it-it cost the $98! That’s the American way!

You’re probably thinking to yourself ah, Hed’s talking about food, she must be feeling better! Meh. I have slept probably 30 hours in the last two days. Serious. I just got out of bed, and got right back into bed. The times that I wasn’t asleep I was crying. Sleep was a much better option. I think my brain is having a rebound thing going on, which is why I am awake at 6am and on a functional level (I showered. Go me!).

I forgot to mention last week that I was approved to see a psychologist at a reduced rate after being on the waiting list for six weeks. I start Wednesday. For anyone that has never been to therapy, the hardest part (for me at least) is where to begin. I mean, do I start with “hey, I’m bipolar and think about suicide every day!”, or “I love my husband, but he’s in Australia and I sleep in a bed with Thomas the Tank Engine sheets at my mom’s”? Maybe the “I have severe daddy issues” route? Plus my social anxiety is going to screw me up as well. I know one of the first things I will say is “so, um, I have an intense fear of people judging me, and it’s really hard to talk to strangers. Please don’t take offense and please stop judging me!!!”

I’ve been seeing that “4 Truths and a Lie” thing going around and no one has tagged me for it yet (PS Becca I owe you a questionnaire!), so I’m just going to throw it out there. Four of these are true and one is false. Comment on which one is fake!

1. On a trip home from Las Vegas, I flashed a group of guys the goods-then ran into them at the restaurant I was eating at an hour later.

2. I have a tattoo in a place that only my hubs is allowed to see.

3. I once won over $5,000 on a keno machine-on $10.

4. I twisted my knee so bad attempting to snowboard for the first time that I had to be carried in a toboggan.

5. I had all my teeth pulled when I was three, and have had braces twice in my lifetime.

Oh, and I hit 75 followers over the weekend. Thanks to every single one of you for reading <3

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  1. Hed...I'm SOOO glad you are starting to see someone on Wednesday. Why don't you let him start and not worry yourself about where. I just know the right treatment and meds are going to make you start to heal. I just know it. If I could, I'd go with you and hold your hand for support. You can contact me anytime sweetie. Anytime! Keep me posted.! Hugs, EC Mom.

  2. I say number 2 is true!

    It is good to hear that you are going to talk to someone on Wednesday. I say just open your mouth and let whatever comes out..come out. Your heart will know what needs to be said.

  3. Ahh no! It's four truths and a LIE :)

    I messed up on Morgan from The Adorkable Ditz's by doing the same thing!

  4. I think #3 is the lie.

    Congrats on all of the followers.

  5. Hope you are having a really good day. We worry about you girl. I will try for #2.

  6. none of them are fake, they're all true.

    because girls never lie.

  7. First, tell the therapist that everything is Oprah's fault, second...I wanna be flashed...third...I think the snowboard thing is the should have at least 427,391 followers :-)

  8. glad that you're seeing someone. i feel the same way (about opening up and people judging me) so i feel for ya on that one. i hate to have people (even therapists) see me vulnerable.

    i think #5 is the lie.

  9. Hmmmm I vote 2 as well. BTW...I'd be honored if you joined my blog community at

  10. Oh, and YAY for going to the psychologist!!

  11. I totes thought I was following you a long time ago.

    And yay to the psychologist! I know it is super hard and scary and daunting, and you will want to try to make an excuse not to go (if you are anything like me), but seriously say what you wrote up there, and stick with it.

    I say the truth is the flashing the goods. ;-)


  12. #5 is the lie...
    and congrats! you rock...

    chiefakadad is right on th enumber of followers you should have.

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  13. this is tough but i'm going to say #5 is false

  14. #4 is my guess for false.

    And just open your mouth and start talking - you know therapy - the therapist will take it from there. It will be all good. Stop worrying about it, it is there to help, not stress you out. Don't make more of it than it is. It will be okay. Better than okay and what you know you need to do.

    Good luck girlie.

  15. I think either #4 or #5 is the lie :)

  16. Congrats on the followers ma! See, I'm not the only one who thinks you are the bomb! OH, and the teeth pulling one is a lie (I think)... something tells me you are a wild one lol

  17. Good luck with your psychologist. I was in therapy for over two years between 2006 and 2008 dealing with my social anxiety disorder or what I call "regular crazy". I write about it often here Trust me, tehre are a lot of "us" out there dealing with what goes on in our heads. No pun intended. Glad I found your blog.

  18. Well I hope the therapy works for you. I'll go check in a minute what was the lie!

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